Raphael Sabu

What is the point?

The whole world seems to be full of people having virtual sex! Now, that’s all well and good, but surely there is more to a virtual world that pretending to screw some other avatar…

I guess I’m just used to linear games that follow some sort of plot. There is no plot in Second Life. Makes for a confusing time.

Last night was awful! The flu peaked and I had a crazy fever… I spent the night shivering even though I was clutching a hot water bottle, and I had crazy dreams about Second Life that just keep looping around and around.

I think that was the worst of it though, because I’m feeling pretty good right now compared to how I felt yesterday.

I went for a walk today to get some fresh air into my aching lungs and I felt much better afterwards — better than staying cooped up in my room anyway.

I hate being sick, and I’ve got a cold of some sort.

It hit me when I woke up yesterday, and today I feel like absolute crap. My head is aching and my sinuses are burning, and my lungs are itchy… I just feel YUK!

It’s pain because I have a lot of work to do this weekend for uni, and I just want to go to bed.

Well, tonight is the night of the new member’s ceremony for the Golden Key. I’m not really sure what to expect, but I’m hoping that I’ll see some people that I know. My mum is coming coming along, which is nice. I guess it’ll be pretty informal… which is good because I don’t have anything nice to wear, lol. I wonder how many people will be there…

Twice recently I’ve been out and got myself into situations that ended badly… but could have been worse. I’m lucky that I didn’t get myself into trouble.

I’ve just been feeling so caged lately! Sitting around at a computer, reading books, studying, being a nice quite citizen, not talking to anyone, not doing anything that feels real. I guess I just reverted momentarily to previous states of mind, hence the title of this post, ‘brain fart’ — like temporary insanity.

Scared myself a bit to be honest. Now I just want to sit down and behave myself, get my work done, and not think about the nature of ‘reality’ too much — it’s not worth the angst.

Bloody uni. It’s so far removed from reality as I know it… it’s a world unto itself. Only another year to go! God, I hope it goes quickly. I don’t know if I’ll stay on and do Honours, but I might need to *sigh*. Honours might give me the edge I need to get somewhere… though where that place is I have no idea, lol.